I listened to Dookie the other day. I truly can't remember when I would've before that. I know it hasn't been in my possession since I was 18 and sold a bunch of my CDs because I needed the money and I didn't want KC coming over to my place and seeing how lame I was (interestingly enough, I miss many of those CDs and still have a bunch of pretty lame ones on a shelf in my bedroom). I know Kristen and I had some drunk fun singing along to Green Day at Crooked House last year, but that was Kerplunk! So, since I'm shaky trying to get back into this public diary thing, I thought I'd post some lyrics that seem appropriate this time of year.


I saw my friend the other day
And I don't know
Exactly just what he became
It goes to show
It wasn't long ago
That I was just like you
And now I think you're sick and I wanna go home!

How have I been? How have you been?
It's been so long
What have you done with all your time?
And what went wrong?

I knew you back when
And you ... you knew me
And now I think you're sick and I wanna go home!

Anybody ever say "No"?
Ever tell you that you weren't right?
Where did all the little kid go?
Did you lose it in a hateful fight?
And you know it's true

It wasn't long ago
That I was just like you
And now I think I'm sick and I wanna go home!

Six years ago, I was worried my "bad" dreams would come true. In ways, some of them did, but not the way they were dreamt. I mean, some of the ideas they were about happened, but nothing like some sort of premonition like I feared. I put "bad" in quotations, because many of them had to do with losing KC.

Happy New Year!

The end of the year is approaching. With it, arguably, comes the end of the decade. I guess it's a time to reflect and make resolutions. Although I have plans to make quite a few changes. That might mean I'd have to break the last New Year's Resolution I made, but not really. I'm not silly enough to think I can magically change everything once the clock strikes midnight on Thursday. Sometimes, though, I think it might be better to make ridiculous promises to myself, since many of the things I'm slowly changing and planning to change are things I've talked about endlessly here.

The only thing I can really ponder right now, however, is why the fuck I'm so depressed today when I was ecstatic about my life very recently. It could be that this time of year brings parties, and the type of partying I do involves depressants. It could be that I had to go back to work today after enjoying a few days off with my honey, as opposed to the days off without him I spend on the road. It could be that Barry Dworkin pissed on the fucking couch again (I know, I know. A vet appointment is on its way). It could be a sign that something is wrong with one of the other Crystals (since DID is a plausible explanation for blacking out like I do).

I don't know. I'm gonna drink a beer and go to bed. Maybe I'll wake up on the other side of the bed tomorrow (except I'd have to roll over Bob to get there).

Two years ago, I was bothered by my posture. It still bothers me. It improved a bit when I boxercised. Maybe WiiFit will help...