I really need to do something about my posture. It has bothered me ever since it stopped feeling rebellious to slouch. Every so often, I become more aware of it and I attempt to straighten out. I aches because it uses muscles I am not that used to using, but at the same time it feels so good.

The problem is that I lean. I hardly ever actually hold myself up. I sit it chairs, leaning and draping my body every which way. When I stand, I lean against the wall, or a table, or pole, tree, partner, whatever is around. I don't stand. At work, I leaned against the counter a lot.

In school, I would practically lie across my desk.

Now, I see myself, I see the hunch. I see those old ladies with the humpbacks. I want to get off that path.


Last year I couldn't say much because I was mourning a man I hardly knew. But spending the day with his daughter had a profound effect on me. Wow. I hadn't thought of that recently. I didn't see her this Christmas.