Have I let you down? It's been almost two weeks, but you still come back looking to see if I've said something new yet.

First, I was too drunk to write. Now I'm too happy to. I mean, it's hard to find the motivation to pour out positive emotions. It's too fun to just go out and feel good. Then I have no time to tell you all about why I feel so good.

A few weeks ago, I got something I really needed. Closure. I can't put my finger on exactly how, but I know it's been onwards and upwards ever since. I'm sure there will be other dates over the rest of the year that I remember "10 years ago..." but I'm finally coming at things from a different and much better perspective.

I'm building my own routines and it's working out well. I still need to work on the cooking issue, but it's coming.

I go to boxercise twice a week now and still fucking love it. I've never really been active at all in my life, and the shit they say is true. It really is boosting my energy levels and my happiness. Physically, it's great too. My abs are slowly reaching the level of tautness they had when I was regularly sexually active. My arms are finally getting some definition and I'm learning how to confidently throw a punch or kick. I still plan on eventually starting Yoga on Wednesday nights.

I jam with new people now. We have only gotten together once so far, but in a few days that will be twice. I was pretty nervous about it; afraid that it was a mistake to let other people see certain sides of me. I'm a big poseur. But, once I finally stopped nervously giggling at myself and started playing something it turned out to be a lot of fun. And shit, I've missed my bass over the last year or so.

I seem to be moving up in my job and they want me to return after my trip. They are just going to get a temporary temp to replace me while I'm away.

My relationships are going and growing well. I'm very happy with who my closest friends are. KC and I still have a lot of fun together, usually on Tuesdays. I'm getting to know people I've always wanted to know better and guys are finally clueing in that it's over and they can, and should, be flirty with me. I've tasted new lips for the first time since that making out with girls phase a few years ago.

I'm going away in a couple of weeks, but only for a short trip. Dog Day are going to the other side of the country to play shows with a band that was highly important to me growing up. I mean, Julie played a huge part in me convincing my parents to buy me my bass 14 years ago. Now I get to travel and play shows with them and watch them play with the Vaselines.

So, yeah, all in all, things are pretty fucking good right now and I'm sending out huge thank yous to absolutely anyone and everyone who has had a part in helping things get this good.

(four months)

Last year, I referenced Piggy and the Replacements.