That was a pretty clean reboot.

It's almost like the last year didn't even happen, except that it brought me to a better place to start this year. Last year I was an absolute fucking mess. I was irrational, emotional, paranoid, and mean. I couldn't really cope with anything. Now, I've been on my meds for awhile and although I'm still a mental case, it's controllable (until I drink my face off). Last year, I was in dire need of getting a job and finally signed up at the temp place, but the early morning jobs added to my instabilities as I couldn't sleep early even if I had to and was tired from getting up. I didn't have anything really suitable to wear to the offices I was going to. Now, I'm going back to an office I've already spent a few months in. I have a better wardrobe, I'm more okay with getting up (actually, I got to like it last year). Last year, I was screaming and crying and treating my husband like shit, trying to push him away. Now, things are really good, I love his company, this new arrangement came at just the right time and seems to be working. Last year, I couldn't hold a conversation with anybody, except drunken rambling. Now, I feel an actual bond with the people in my life, I enjoy listening to them, and I can even add my two cents sometimes. Last year I was in a bad place financially, now I have to start paying back my student loans (so, not everything's better this time around).

Four years ago I listed the pathetic contents of my refrigerator.