I'm drunk. But it's okay. I haven't really been drunk too much on the trip, even though I've been drinking every day. So much beer. I know I don't have to drink it just because it's there, but, well, I really like beer. And we've visited the hometowns of a few of my favourites. Right now, for example, I am in Bremen, the home of Beck's. Sure, Beck's may not be one I'd choose first at home, but it is one that I like. I guess I kind of never thought I'd be in the city where it was made.
I am sleeping with Fritz tonight. He is so cute. I slept with him last night as well. No, I'm not sleeping with some German guy I just met, although there is a part of me who wanted to a couple of times. Fritz is the cat. Not even a real cat. KC bought him for me at a gas station. I tried to talk him out of it, saying it was a wast of money, but he said I really wanted it and it was the cheapest one we'd come across. That's true. At every gas station, I stopped at the table of stuffed kitties and picked one up to snuggle. Now I finally have a cat that I don't have to worry about feeding or cleaning the litter box. I can take him on tour and he doesn't mind and nobody is allergic. And he's soooo soft. He sat on my keyboard tonight while we played. I feel very childish, but I don't care. I love him. I was reminded of my first time flying alone. I was 8 and I was flying to Ontario to visit my grandparents. Back then, I had a Fluppy Dog I took everywhere with me. To be a good girl, I put her on a leash in the airport, and after saying goodbye to my parents, I pulled her behind me down the hallway. Fritz also reminds me of high school, when I had little toys on my desk during exams to help me feel comfortable. In many ways, I will never grow up. So what?
I didn't realize at first that we would be away over Thanksgiving, but once I found out, I was happy. I'm sure I've mentioned before my distaste of holidays, and for reasons I don't feel like getting into right now, this is probably the worst. We have the next three days off in Berlin. Brent has invited us to a Thanksgiving dinner. Being out of the country over the holiday, I'm supposed to be happy about that. Instead, it puts a cloud on things. Or maybe that cloud is from all the drinking. No, I don't think so. It's okay. It'll be a good time. Be positive.
I should sleep. If I can.
I am sleeping with Fritz tonight. He is so cute. I slept with him last night as well. No, I'm not sleeping with some German guy I just met, although there is a part of me who wanted to a couple of times. Fritz is the cat. Not even a real cat. KC bought him for me at a gas station. I tried to talk him out of it, saying it was a wast of money, but he said I really wanted it and it was the cheapest one we'd come across. That's true. At every gas station, I stopped at the table of stuffed kitties and picked one up to snuggle. Now I finally have a cat that I don't have to worry about feeding or cleaning the litter box. I can take him on tour and he doesn't mind and nobody is allergic. And he's soooo soft. He sat on my keyboard tonight while we played. I feel very childish, but I don't care. I love him. I was reminded of my first time flying alone. I was 8 and I was flying to Ontario to visit my grandparents. Back then, I had a Fluppy Dog I took everywhere with me. To be a good girl, I put her on a leash in the airport, and after saying goodbye to my parents, I pulled her behind me down the hallway. Fritz also reminds me of high school, when I had little toys on my desk during exams to help me feel comfortable. In many ways, I will never grow up. So what?
I didn't realize at first that we would be away over Thanksgiving, but once I found out, I was happy. I'm sure I've mentioned before my distaste of holidays, and for reasons I don't feel like getting into right now, this is probably the worst. We have the next three days off in Berlin. Brent has invited us to a Thanksgiving dinner. Being out of the country over the holiday, I'm supposed to be happy about that. Instead, it puts a cloud on things. Or maybe that cloud is from all the drinking. No, I don't think so. It's okay. It'll be a good time. Be positive.
I should sleep. If I can.
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