I went to a bar by myself last night. I think, other than stopping into Charlie's or the Argyle after school or work with a book or a journal, that it was my first time doing such a thing. I was 18 when I started dating KC. The times I've gone out without him I was with Emily and Nancy or Ali and Janice. The walk down was a little scary. I know I shouldn't do that, but I couldn't sit and watch the news. I had a good time. I spent most of the night hanging out with Jordan and Hayden. I like both of those guys. I thought it was funny when Jordan asked if I was there alone, then gave me a weird look and sat down. Two hateful loners sitting together, hardly talking except to make small talk and complain. He saved me money I was going to spend on a cab home by walking with me instead. That was nice. It sounds like the mini Vennt tour was good. Or, at least the shows were good, but the driving, not so much. I don't mind long drives. I like listening to music, reading, doing small crafts and puzzles, or recording C-Blood stuff. The possibilities are endless really.

I guess the decision was party. Tomorrow night. When it was first suggested, I thought "sure. Let's have a party. It's Crystal's birthday, let's put her in a position she doesn't really like." But as I thought about it, I realized it could be fun and by the time I had two beer and a shot of Jag in me, I was telling people at Charlie's that we were having one. I don't want a huge one, but that's okay. I don't have a huge amount of friends and I haven't told anyone...

I heard a rumour that Ali's coming to visit soon. That makes me happy. And Lavender. He's around. I will be very disappointed if he does not get in touch by Monday.

Three years ago, I was waiting to leave on my first tour ever.