It's nice to be out, but I'm not sure I should've left the house. The cravings aren't constant anymore. They come in waves. But there are so many people I could bum from. It's too tempting. As I drifted off to sleep last night, I had hot and cold flashes. My teeth have been clenching and I want to explode. Explode with joy, anger, tears, fear. Anything, really. Just something loud. I left the house to be a little responsible. Forgetting that it was a holiday, I went to a bank to make an overdue student loan payment. Then, I bumped into some people at the library. When I got too fidgety to stand it anymore, I went down to the Paper Chase. As soon as I leave here, I'm doing some birthday shopping, if I can. I'm shaking, so I might just curl up at home again. Yeah, shopping, then eating, then curling up. It's so funny being crazy. How boring is life for the sane?

These pimples are making me mad. Stupid pills making me be high school again. I actually had to buy zit remedy. High School again. HA! I wasn't there when I was there. One of the people I was talking to at the library went to one of the schools I went to at the same time as me. She said it was weird. I assumed she meant weird that she didn't remember me (I recognized her, but didn't know why). It's not weird. Back then, I sat near the things I wanted to do and read. After school, I went home and played video games. Occasionally I'd hang out and listen to music with the couple friends I did have. Or, go over to one of their houses and read. Right now I'm reading three books: Drinking: A Love Story, Even Cowgirls Get the Blues, and Please Kill Me.

LOOK!!! I'M CRAWLING UP THE WALL WITH A STRING IN MY ASS!!!