I'm not too happy with myself right now. Why do I always feel like this after a night like last night? Why all this guilt? The only thing I did wrong was getting that last beer. That one too many. The ones before that were given to me, and we were all having rounds. I didn't need that last one. I don't need this guilt and depression now. I disappoint myself so often. There are things I've planned to do for a long time now. But I don't like change.