"That's not what I meant." How many times in my life have I said that or thought that? Far too many to recall. I always mean what I say to an extent, or at least I mean it when I say it. But, I also never completely mean anything. I'm usually trying to be a little funny. I know I'm weird and it usually makes people laugh. I also tend to exaggerate when I get emotional. But everybody takes everything I say so seriously. It's hard to take. It's hard when people think you're nothing but a negative creep, when really you're just trying to be light-hearted. I don't know. I can't even explain now what I'm trying to get at. People take me the wrong way. Nobody truly understands me, but some people think they do. That's okay, though. I don't really understand anybody, including myself. I'm giving up.

Two years ago wasn't even the beginning of the renovations that would take so long.