I had a conversation with KC awhile back. I was complaining about Halifax and how easy it is to be suffocated here. I said I didn't like how everyone looked at me weird after my last few crazy posts. He said "well, you're the one with a blog for them all to read." I tried to explain that it's not for them to read. If they read it, that's their choice, but they can't still mind their own business? By that I meant they could, like I do, read blogs but not let it interfere with real life. I'm tired of being treated like I'm insane. He said "but it's on the internet so they can read it. You're the one who talks about how crazy you are. If you're just doing it for yourself, why don't you write in a book?" I told him I can't write in a book. I've never been able to. There's something about the pretty web page, the legible text, the feedback, and the archives that keeps me going. Yes, the feedback. Like comments, not weird looks. I had another conversation with a fella named Jon. I can't remember what we were talking about, possibly that feud that I missed, but he said "it's amazing how public some people bring their shit. It's like they're trying to get the whole city on their side." Well, I'm not trying to be a writer or a journalist, and I'm not trying to get anyone on anyone's side. I'm just trying to get out some of the things that go on in my mind. When ling-ling asked if my whole blog has been deleted, I said "yes and no." It's not here, but it is somewhere on the internet. All my archives and anything new (but I haven't written anything new yet). Last year, when trying to keep this out of search engines, I found myself on a Blogger help page. The last thing on that page is "Note that the only way to keep your blog truly private is to password protect it." Being I link, I thought I could click on it and find out how to password protect my blog. Well, I clicked on that link a few weeks ago. That's when I found out that it's not offered by Blogger. I gave up searching for another blogging (program (?) company (?)) whatever. So, I'm still with Blogger somewhere. If you're actually interested, email me and I'll probably tell you the new URL. Especially if you're really a friend, and/or if you've given me some of that feedback. I know that once I tell a few people, other people will find out. I still have links in my archives, and if someone clicks on one, that person will see it in their statcounter. I know it's on the internet and can be found. I'm not trying to stay completely hidden, I just don't want to be here anymore. But, I like where I am, and I'll stay there until I lose my mind again and feel like moving. I'm not going to have any links on it, and I would love if no one linked to me. I don't want to be a part of any "blogosphere." What goes on in your heart? What goes on in your mind? You are tearing me apart When you treat me so unkind What goes on in your mind? Thank you Swordfighters for inspiring. It's been a swell year and a half (a little longer than that). Sorry for quitting, ger, right after you changed your links. I have one more post to make. It'll be about our wedding plans. But, I have to wait until I confirm some of those plans. I'm sorry for the short notice to the people in Montreal and Japan that I would love to have at my wedding but proabably can't make travel plans that quickly. Well, Montrealers could make it, depending on other commitments like school or work. It won't seem right getting married with Brian in Japan, but I'm not waiting any longer. It's gonna happen. Unless I can't book the places that soon.