Rather than actually express myself, I think I'll quote some lyrics that basically fit.

Kill Yourself

I have broken
Every promise
My mind is numb
And filled with smut

It's taking less and less
For me to get the message

There may be nothing more
There may be nothing more

Claustrophobia

Brain-dead in my twenties
And get bored with no solution?
So I reach to anything

For feeling
Destroy everything

To take this skin off
Take this skin off
Take this skin off

Now I'm into confrontation
I tried drugs and education
I look for conflict
To light me on fire

Release from everything
From feeling
Destroy everything
To take this skin off

I have broken
Every promise
My mind is numb
And filled with smut

It's taking less and less
For me to get the message

There may be nothing more
There may be nothing anymore

Now I'm into confrontation
I tried drugs and education
I look for conflict
To light me on fire

Lyrics by Chik White, and obviously I don't know them all. I'm terrible at picking lyrics out of songs. I listened here a couple of times, and that's the best I could do. Who could blame the kids from Truro for thinking the line "Stop speaking to (for) me." was "Stop spanking me"? Edited now that I have the lyrics sheet.

This day last year, I was quitting drinking. At that time, it was a big deal that I had gone 3 days without a single drink. This year, I haven't had one since Saturday (Sunday morning), and it's not hard. I guess that means I've improved a little in my goals in a year.