My worst nightmare (since starting this blog) has, or is about to happen. KC's mother has discovered Gerry's blog. She found it when searching for Hold stuff. I've painstakingly taken every step I could think of to not be discovered, and now I am frightened to be on the verge. If you (the mother) read this, I don't want to talk about it. I don't care.

Apparently, she read something about cocaine and going to a Hold show. "What kind of people go to your shows?" There are so many reasons why I hate questions like that. It's such a typical naive question. First off, ALL kinds of people go to our shows. EVERY single person on the planet is different, and different people like our band and/or are friends with us. Second, what's it even matter what "kind" of people come to our shows? We have fun playing our shows, and they wouldn't be as fun without an audience. We're certainly not a straight-edge band, so we're not going to preach or judge the people that come. Everyone is entitled to live their own lives.

But KC responded by saying "oh, I know the guy. He's a friend of mine." And I'm glad he did. I'm tired of lying to her and hiding my true self; trying so hard to be something I'm not. That's why I'm always depressed in Liverpool. The problem with him telling her that is that it will spark her curiosity. If Gerry was just a random guy from Halifax that happened to come to Hold shows, she may not ever return to his page. After all, there's a lot of sin described in those pages, and therefore, it's sinful to read and enjoy it. But, knowing that he's a friend of our's, she can justify reading it out of concern for her son. What's he doing hanging out with folks like that?

In the end, it's not a big deal if she reads Gerry's stuff. It's his stuff, and I don't care what people think of my friends, and she'd eventually get over it. But, her being there brings her so close to here. If she returns, she may see the link that say "Crystal HOLD." If she sees that, she definitely check it out. Maybe, Gerry, if you read this, you would be kind enough to change the link description to something less obvious. I can only hope it's not too late. I could talk to my parents about this (especially my mom), but I don't know about her. Almost everything I write about in here, even if done in moderation, will devastate her. (I just thought of the Snaps' Devastator songs.)

I say I've taken steps to try and avoid this. You may be wondering what I've done. First, I never used my or KC's last names. I know for a fact that I'm the ONLY person with my name, and putting it in my blog would assure it coming up in search engines. But, I soon realized that that wasn't good enough. Getting my Stat Counter helped there. I did say our first names, our band name, Brian Lingley, Liverpool, and other things that might make this discoverable. So, I looked around in Blogger's help and found this. From there, I went to Google's remove content page and followed the directions. It worked. The only way to find me in Goggle now is to actually type "pistolwhip." So, you have to know what you're looking for. The search engines will not turn up any of the content.

If you do read this, I'm sorry. I do love you. But, at least now you know why we didn't want you in our "My Pictures" folder, or going through our stuff while we're not here. Now you know some of what we're hiding. It would be a relief to not have to pretend anymore. I'm so bad at pretending.