According to Merriam-Webster Online,

"Masturbation=erotic stimulation especially of one's own genital organs commonly resulting in orgasm and achieved by manual or other bodily contact exclusive of sexual intercourse, by instrumental manipulation, occasionally by sexual fantasies, or by various combinations of these agencies." But we all knew that, right? This dictionary has no entries for masturbate or masturbation in its thesaurus.

I remember when I was younger, you know, old enough to know what masturbate meant but I hadn't tried it really, I was reading a YM magazine, no it was Cosmo. Anyway, it mentioned something called "mutual masturbation." I didn't understand that one, lying beside each other jerking off? Why don't we touch each other? But Merriam-Webster's definition explains this. "or other bodily contact exclusive of sexual intercourse." So mutual masturbation is giving each other "jobs."

I was uncomfortable with the idea of touching myself for a long time. When I did do it, I felt dirty and wrong, I couldn't get past the fact that it was me touching me. You know, I couldn’t clear my head and get into it. I gave up for quite a long time. It’s not like I really needed it, there’d always been sex around when I wanted it.

But lately, I’ve been really enjoying it. And by lately, I mean the last year and a half or so. So what has changed? I’m a lot more comfortable with myself than I used to be. I also have more confidence. But I don’t have any toys.

Some girls that I used to be in a band with told me they were going to get me something. That was last year, and well, you can’t count on anyone. So I do it with no help at all. Just me and my fingers. I like taking a really warm bath, with bubbles that smell good and candles. It’s very relaxing. But that takes a lot of effort. I’m lazy and the effort, although nice, is not necessary.