A few weeks ago, I was very worried. I was concerned that I was in it for the wrong reasons. That I was being selfish; just using a person for the comfort I get. I thought, maybe, that I would like pretty much anyone who touched me that way. It's just so good to be held. I didn't really believe it was what I was doing, but I had to admit the possibility. I try to think of things from many different angles.

I realize now, though, that it isn't true. That's a relief. It's getting easier to relax. I still need to work on trusting.